someone told me..

that today was the first day of fall.. and i don't know if they were right, but today.. outside.. was just too good to be true..

today, inside the office, on the other hand.. was hell. I'm going to start marking on my calendar the days that make me wish i were dead, yes it was that bad, and once they outweigh the "eh.. ok" days.. i'll begin the job search again..

the day took a turn for the best when all three clocks on my desk turned 5:30 and i walked outside. the smells and the wind on my arms imposed a slight smile on my face. so i took some inspiration from here, (thanks kara) and gave into the weather.

Right now, I'm laying on the couch, haven't moved a muscle in about an hour, just ate the "meat cookies" i made for dinner, watching a flipping out marathon, with the windows open and my vanilla and pumpkin spice tea lights lit, thinking about getting up and making my move to the Sprinkles red velvet cupcake that's in my fridge soon..

fall, i love you.. truly.. welcome to dallas

astros.. still got it..

good game.

night one.

first younglife club of the year was tonight. It's unbelievable to see all of the joy in these high school kids.. they're yelling, at. the. top. of. their. lungs. seriously going nuts.. there was blood. the part that gets me.. is that there IS so much joy there and most of them don't recognize it yet or have no idea where it comes from.. buuut i do :) it may just take them a while to figure it out, but when they do.. life will be never be the same. deep breath. in. out. smile.

I was just sitting in the back towards the end taking it all in.. I just COULD NOT believe there were that many kids there.. that's where they chose to be and what they wanted to do with their Monday night.. and then it's like Jesus sat down next to me.. indian style.. arm around shoulder.. pointing out certain kids, telling me to look at them, remember them.. showing me what is about to happen..

good night. mm hm.

how god continues to change how i see him..

I went on staff with YL for 10 years and those years shaped my thinking on ministry (show up; be with people; share Jesus; love; show up; pray; open the Scripture; show up; pray; open the Scripture; pray; love; it’s about kids/people; it’s about Christ; show up; love; pray; open the Scripture). - Cheryl Fletcher

it's just that simple. and that's it. 

Some may know, but this ministry-based organization used to drive me up the wall. I had judged so quickly and satan had hardened my heart to stick with these ideas i had come up with. god's sovereignty. perfect. now, i find myself spending most nights immersing myself in "showing up"

it's nights like tonight that remind me what this is all for.. if we've got to waste our lives here until we go home, why not waste it "doing life" with people, showing up and sharing anything we know about jesus' life?

what a great night. there are big things about to happen..