do not be silent..

big weekend, lots of thoughts.. haven't gotten them all straight but they just all seem to keep coming back to one another.. actually, first off, headed out to the ranch this weekend. i feel extremely old and somewhat loser-ish, but some friday nights you just wanna be in the country, with your momma and daddy.. ya know? can i just say, you've never seen a sky like this before.. ever.. i'm talkin' stars.. gajillions.. like the descendants of abraham, jk jk jk, that stuff is so cheesy.. but seriously, beautiful. my mom and i did a little "design on a dime" action to the barn, i'm so hick right now.. 

before.

after.

also, check what dakota found.. that would be a deer leg. that-a-girl! she makes me 

proud with each day of her life.. i'm getting carried away with the picture upload. on saturday night, julie, friend jud and i went to a benefit for falling whistles, fallingwhistles.com, talked to a congolese woman who told us her story for a while, then said something that, honestly, made me feel so dumb, i'm trying to think of better words, but really, just felt ignorant. she mentioned how "philanthropy is such a trend right now." kinda looking around the room, it looked like the urban mag we get every month, all the hipsters out supporting their cause.. feeling stupid.. again. can only hope that this "love" isn't just a trend.. cause that's why we're here, right? to love one another as he has loved us? scary that this could just be a fad.. kinda just put into perspective what really matters and what's really gonna last. only hoping that what we're doing here could change generations and not fade away with the next trend.. almost done, almost done.. there's some worship song that says something like, everything i am for your kingdom's cause.. not a well developed thought, but just something i can't get outta my head. everything. everything. work. driving home from work. talking with my brother, or parents. every second of my day til i fall asleep. everything.  something i'm working on..