prayer..

i'm asking god to show me the difference between trusting him and pleasing him. just gonna be real. my whole life, i've been a pleaser.. and pleasing god, i've realized, just holds no weight. that's just me making god into who I want him to be.. so.. i hoping to learn what it feels like to boldly trust Him. 

also, i learned tonight that there is a whole lot more going on with Plano East high school kids than we even know..  it hurts my heart.. it's so easy for me to forget what high school was like, but i was there, i've been where some of these girls are. help me pray for radical changes. 

the weekend..

After working too long on friday.. we headed out to our friend mallory's lake house. Kicked the night off with a some wine in the hot tub.. mm.. and retired shortly after.

The morning though, began with some serious tubing. I'm pretty sure I made Clark deaf with my screaming, and I have to admit (cause I get sore from a night of throwing darts) but I feel like I just hit the gym for about twelve hours.. I could barely drive my car today. Tried wakeboarding.. mallory completely showed me up.. here's michael and jaime tubbing.. i wish i had a picture of her body flying over michael's as they hit the wake.. it was sweet.Also, learned- well no, that's a lie.. no one would help me- but we hit golf balls into the lake, trying to perfect my swing. It was more entertaining i guess to watch me struggle. 

Clark and Mallory. 

Michael Keane. walking the plank.. 

theeen. the boat died. and mallory and michael swam us ashore.. it was probably about seven miles if i had to guess.. they got a good workout.. good job guys.

jaime and i helped from the back.. duh.

 great friends, great weather, great conversation, great weekend. 

softly call the muster..

"We gather today, Aggies all, to recall our past, to strengthen our ties, to honor those who have passed before us... We come today to affirm our commitment, our love for this place and all that it represents." Jack M. Rains, Muster Speaker 1984

tonight, we went to the Dallas Muster.. yep, I'm a good Ag. got to see some people I had no idea even lived in Dallas.. said "here" for a fallen Ag and grubbed some delicious bar-b-que.. is that how you spell that? Either way, I just love my alma mater.. Texas A&M is truly the best school in the universe.. probably the most prestigious, and who wouldn't want to live in the blessed aggieland for four years.. tonight just reminded me of how small I really am in this world, but just how connected we really are. 

i've learned..

if you use a slight country accent on the phone.. people are nicer to you. just a little experiment i've conducted at my little 8-8er, yea that's right.. i'm always there.. no complaints though, i'm really lovin' my job right now.. 

tonight, you rest in my mind..

"repentance and forgiveness will be preached in his name to all nations" Luke 24.

"and he sent them out to preach the kingdom of God and to heal the sick" Luke 9.

"After this, Jesus traveled about from one town and village to another, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom of God" Luke 8.

"I must preach the good news of the kingdom of God to the other towns also, because that is why I was sent" Luke 4. 

So, I've been reading through Luke again clearly.. it's just reassuring and comforting that Jesus spoke these exact words. He had to go too. He had to get out. 

on another note.

i like this picture.. it's from my easter weekend in corpus.. it looks like my mom is flickin' pops off.. hah. i thiiink (?) she was trying to make a peace sign.. who knows. 

nother day, nother dollar

hahahahaha.. please.. anyone? this is the district clerk in some county.. johnson maybe? just came across this this morning.. brought joy to my work life.. so i post about it :)

plane rides

i'm in corpus christi.. sick.. here and lubbock were the two places I vowed never to visit. but i'm here. for some reason i seem to be a magnet for the "freaker outers" on flights. the first one, a 30 year old lady on valium who did not like to fly.. she thought the wheels coming out of the bottom for landing  were gun shots.. the second an elementary age girl who thought her ears where about to explode and started crying hysterically.. really? i mean really? come on, you're like twelve.. but i'm here by the bay.. not beach i learned today.. tomorrow i beach it.. and watch sfa kick some a. 

for now.. i listen to snoop dog as i fall asleep.. yep, i drugged myself tonight, a little od on nyquil.. my parents snore and i'm in the bed right next to them.. gooooodnight blog world. 

quote of the week..

"what if the highlight of your afternoon was seeing how many peanut m&m's you can get out of the dispenser with one turn? I just set a new personal best with 13!" - michael keane.. 

so things i've learned the past 3 weeks of working downtown.. homeless men like to pee on newspaper dispensers.. get to know your security guards at the bottom of your building, they're pretty cool guys, intimidating, but cool.. but stop at friendship, it's uncomfortable to walk in and get looked up and down when wearing a skirt.. and appreciate the street corner preachers.. get used to "praise the lord" and "aaaamen" when walking past.. don't get lost in the tunnels and don't run into your boss' office in heels, you'll twist your ankle and embarrass yourself beyond belief..

that day, was the best damn day, that day

so this is kinda like my facebook now.. so now. a day in pictures.. 

we're so emo.

i always find that a little "of a revolution" can turn a beautiful day into a thank-ya-jesus for letting me live in this beautiful day. so this is what i do. i blast oar and head over to white rock lake. i know that some people, not mentioning names, are kinda missing austin.. but look around.. look at what dallas has to offer ya! it's great! :)

i love love love to be outside.. so saturday, some great friends and i packed a picnic and headed out to white rock lake. beautiful day.

that's james.. he loooves to picnic.. next we have the dogs.. of course.. dakota got to attack an old couple's old dog- total fun for her, and duma learned what a horse was.. good day.

then, we admired downtown from a far.. just yearning for monday, where we could once again get in that office and feel alive.. feel some purpose in life ya know? 

so.. what a beautiful saturday.. it's days like these that remind me i'm alive and to truly appreciate the glories of the world.. also.. how freakin' blessed i am to have amazing friends.

the end.